Monday, 22 May 2017

'This Is Calcutta'- An Evening with Will Self


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Will Self, writer of books such as Great Apes and Cock and Bull, owns a pair of the deepest set eyes I have seen as if they are looking out from a tunnel and inspecting and dissecting every aspect of modern life.  

When I say to him that I am a fellow writer he sympathises admitting that even writers of his own generation will never reach the stature of the generation before with the likes of Martin Amis and Salman Rushdie.  The changes in publishing and in reading have been such that it's very difficult to get yourself noticed.  The advent of creative writing courses means there are plenty of writers, just not readers. 

We are at the Watershed in Bristol, Will has just arrived and is getting his picture taken with his back against the harbourside, for an event about Mental Health and Homelessness, which takes place during Mental Health Week.   

I confess to have a vested interest in this event in having been diagnosed with Bi-Polar and also technically homeless due to my illness.  In the context of a steadily increasing homelessness and more becoming housed in temporary accommodation with  an increasing suicide rate, according to government statistics, it seems to be a timely event for St Mungos to put on.  

St Mungos recently launched a new initiative called Safer Off the Steets (SOS Bristol), a fund raising fund raising campaign to help tackle the rising problem of homelessness.  

Will Self is known for his scathing attacks on politicians and general cultural he unusually turns out to be a generous and deeply sympathetic, as well as a (not so unusual) deeply articulate, speaker.  His voice has a particular drawling quality as if it was made out of a strong wood like oak with someone raking the bark.  It's as deep set as his eyes and unerringly always at the concept level of ideas. 

 His talk began with an article that he had written for the New Statesmen, which was not published and subsequently for which he was fired for (“O woe is me”).   It was about a homeless man he knows called George and about the housing culture of which he tries, and tries and tries, to get a footing in.  Normally he is found under a cash machine trying to get a few pounds for a drink so he can be somewhere warm and to temporally forget his situation.

Will talks about how new houses are being developed, which are normally luxury flats way out the means of people like George.  He describes how he helped George to get back into the system with the council as it is the only way he can get into some sheltered accommodation and, with some hope, get a stable place to live.  George is only one of the many people who have fallen into homelessness.  He wasn't always like this once he had a wife, a home, a good job, now all lost where all attempts to get any of it back have resulted in hopelessness.  Things can be done on an individual level that can make a difference.

“Personal contact is important”, Will says, “because once you know of the homeless person in question’s name they cease to be a ‘homeless person’ and they become someone who actually want to help get off the street and help them achieve what they would like to achieve out of life.  To give what you can give is also very important as it may be a vital stopgap to hunger before they get some real help.”

“In some periods of history there may be only so much you can do but”, Will encourages, “we here are all people who would wish to help- in fact probably most people here have probably waited with someone at A&E or have spent time talking and providing food for someone who needed it- and that’s not a bad number.”

“In London where I live I saw a man in a wheelchair rolling down a busy highstreet, his leg newly amputated because I could see it was still raw and bloody, and his look was the look of a crazy man and I thought this thought, which I don’t think often, is that we have stopped being a civilised country, we have become Calcutta.”

“Calcutta was a country that became a byword for every sin and nastiness you could find because of it’s large poor population.  In a sense we distrust poverty, hate it, which is right but we hate the people who are in it and ascribe negative characteristics to those people of whose fault is not of their own making.  That’s what’s happened here and a lot of that is because of our new Victorian values we have been coerced into believe because of neo-liberal dogma that we’ve allowed to govern so much of our lives.”

In being asked a question, that refers to Dostoevsky’s quote about how you can tell what a country is like by how they treat their mental insane, Will admits to being pessimistic about hospitals’ futures and generally pessimistic about how people on the lowest rung of the ladder are treated by governments.  And on a question of politics Will said how he would vote for Labour if only they were more honest about their proposed government. 

“If they had said ‘We’ll be poor for ten, twenty, thirty, hell, a whole generation, we’ll stop buying iphones from China and stop consuming the shit out of everything but everyone will be equal’ then I’d vote for it but to think it can get everything it wants is dishonest”.  

A question from someone in a housing association for drug addicts told how he was having to leave the property because the association has calculated that it will not make enough profit.  To which Will said with disgust, and worry, of how poorly people like this man and himself (Will Self was a drug addict for twenty years) will be treated and are treated shows how badly the market based system has encroached on our moral ability to look after each other as everything has to make it’s own way without central government support.   

The Grass Arena by John Healy is recommended by Will.  A good book if you want to understand the nature of addiction.   

A weighty evening yet an enjoyable one, a happy one where a major writer gave his thoughts about the concerns of the day and also a sad one where our group of around thirty or forty people felt just as ignored to by most people as the homeless he was talking about.  

But the difference we can all make to those who are less fortunate and are struggling their way though life can make all the difference.  I have started asking the names of those whom I give money to as a beginning of a friendship that may one day be as useful to me as it is to those without homes or family.

If you wish to donate anything to the SOS Bristol project the website is here for their crowd funding site: 

Will Self's new book 'Phone' is out this Thursday, 25th of May.

Sunday, 14 May 2017

Parted Painting

It was a sad affair and nothing I could do about it.  Such is a small fact of life.  The painting still hangs in the corridor of, if not power than certainly, pain and I'm sure it is not looked upon with any kind of fondness.
  I lay listlessly trying not to respond to the hectoring Little Englander spokesperson arguing for a true and pure national race.  There was already a headache rummaging in my head and I was on my last Asprin of the day.
   It was neatly painted, neater than anything I had done previously, which was a cause of suspicion as before I had almost disregarded all techniques I had ever learned.
  My old master was a trying man, he tried his hand to almost everything but kept coming back to what he knew.
  I had studied beside him watching his work and hand with my eye attempting to take it all in.  The eye, he once told me is like a pool ready to be filled with any dye worth the colour.  Things have been swimming in them ever since.  I still learn a lot by thinking of him- the lusty European- but he can't still my headaches or do justice to my situation, that pains me daily.
  What is it about the English?  Their pig-headedness, their unruly stubbornness,  their crass faith.  What does it all boil down to?  That portrait,.. I wouldn't have bothered if I knew the trouble it would cause me, as it is simply not worth it, not worth it at all.  What would I know?
  Of course the joke is that it was on commission, that it wasn't my idea to have it painted, that came later.  That's another thing the English are short of: Irony.  Not short of it, but short of picking it up, of perceiving it when it comes into view.  Ha bloody ha.
  Yeah, that painting, I'm sure my old master would have been proud of me for having done it.  A real realistic piece, none of the clouded concrete of abstraction, but something full of the details of the ruddy sordid world.  I never thought I would admit it but Lucien Freud is heroic in his work he attempts and does, admist a grey and dying Lowry landscape.
  Such pains artists undertake to follow though with their visions of reality, but there are many ways of seeing.
  Even though I had worked on that painting for many hours every aspect of that image is starting to fade and I know I could never refresh it again.
  The guy in the corner is getting louder and I could knock him out before getting myself kicked out before getting myself kicked out into the beating cold and trying to establish my feet again.  I drink up my whiskey and toy with ordering another while I wondered about that big house where one of my finest works rested in, never to be seen again,